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I ached for the solid unshakable support of my bottom. The cold stable embrace of my rocky darkness. Everything taken from me, stripped of your touch, stripped of our future.
All inside of me craved it the same way I craved for your love and presence just a moment ago.

I needed to test my safety net before the nuclear impact.
Still standing, well oiled, ready to hold me on my way down to the abyss, and back up again from the foggy humid floor of my supreme ordeal.

At the highest of my heights, sponsored by your grace, I panicked and retired. I admit defeat on this battle, the fog took the wolves.
Turning the filthy cell into an oasis, and back again.
The prison my mind, the flowers my belly. My heart my sweetest fight for redemption.

I’ll come for more, I never give up.